A long break.

My heart is getting confused.

Leaning towards a direction that I don't think I should. There are so many things going through my head and stuff or human that I shouldn't even think about. Maybe it's because I didn't sleep enough yesterday or maybe this is just a temporary insanity that visits me ever so often nowadays.

Maybe I am just tired and I want to rest. Maybe it's because I feel like I no longer have the guts to hang on to my feelings. Maybe its because I haven't seen him in about a week plus now.

Eyh you.
I am kinda interested in you.
But you are just so blur.
And I still need time to tear down these walls.
Therefore, I am taking a long break from you.

Cause every time I check out your Wall, the first thing I look at is your status.
And then all the comments trying to figure out what is your type.
I will end up closing the page defeated and I find it myself very pathetic.
All the confidence I had, blown away with the wind.

Its like a shattered mirror,
No matter how much time or glue you use,
It will never reflect perfectly again.

Facebook!

The master of all website to get information that you need.
I know, I admit it, I am a stalker.
BUT only a certain people and I don't do it often okay.

Anyway, I saw some photos of him in another friends page and he was playing some game.
Holding on to another girls hand.
I wonder what game was that?

I want to know cause I also want to play that game with him :)
Ahahahah. Just joking ^.^
I feel like punching that girl.
Ahahah. Just joking also ^.^
And maybe kick her.
Ahahaha. I am soo full of jokes today.

And No la, I am not jealous!
Not jealous at all!
Come on, I am better than that!
Still not jealous.
Okayyyy....fine, MAYBE just a little.

Cruel thoughts creeping into my head. Hehe.
I better get going, it's safer that way.
Byeee!

Breathing.

I am tired before anything could even begin.
At the start of the race,my white flag is raised up high.
The ghost of the past is truly the one that haunts me the most.
For that experience that has literally changed me.
But yet I know that the sun rises everyday.
And therefore I should keep walking even if I keep falling.
Cause at the end, something good will turn out of it.

Hey stranger,
There is something about you that keeps me looking.
And that wall is slowly coming down.
That one night has kept me searching for more (:
But I won't rush things like I am running after a train.
This time I will take my time cause you are truly something.

I am here.

As the daylight disappear earlier and earlier everyday, life gets more hectic with much more assignments and test.

It's that time of the year where all uni student will start to disappear for almost two months and you will suddenly see more people with their specs and hair all messed up. Fashion sense down the drain and their faces will look like someone killed their family.

Oh yes, most of us are going to sit for our finals this June. It's really time to buckle in and study cause I am in desperate need to do very well.

Please keep me in your prayers. And do let me know when you have any prayer request (:
Thanks!

Brain shutting down.
Time to go off.
Nite nite. xoxo

Being emo part 2

Yup,
The cupid missed me again.
And I miss the cupid.

Yup,
It's been a while since I have smiled like an idiot.
And felt the endless joy and happiness within me.

No,
I haven't been searching all over for the "right" one.
But I had a few candidates that came along my way.

No,
The feeling didn't last at all.
At least not long enough for me to even call it like.

I know,
Wake up ai-li.
Life isn't all about love.
Being single is not that exactly a bad thing.

Please read :
I am not under pressure to be taken.
I am just emoing, let me be.
Don't judge me >,<
Yes I will be fine soon.


P/s Going to watch the last song today(: