A long break.

My heart is getting confused.

Leaning towards a direction that I don't think I should. There are so many things going through my head and stuff or human that I shouldn't even think about. Maybe it's because I didn't sleep enough yesterday or maybe this is just a temporary insanity that visits me ever so often nowadays.

Maybe I am just tired and I want to rest. Maybe it's because I feel like I no longer have the guts to hang on to my feelings. Maybe its because I haven't seen him in about a week plus now.

Eyh you.
I am kinda interested in you.
But you are just so blur.
And I still need time to tear down these walls.
Therefore, I am taking a long break from you.

Cause every time I check out your Wall, the first thing I look at is your status.
And then all the comments trying to figure out what is your type.
I will end up closing the page defeated and I find it myself very pathetic.
All the confidence I had, blown away with the wind.

Its like a shattered mirror,
No matter how much time or glue you use,
It will never reflect perfectly again.

Being emo part 2

Yup,
The cupid missed me again.
And I miss the cupid.

Yup,
It's been a while since I have smiled like an idiot.
And felt the endless joy and happiness within me.

No,
I haven't been searching all over for the "right" one.
But I had a few candidates that came along my way.

No,
The feeling didn't last at all.
At least not long enough for me to even call it like.

I know,
Wake up ai-li.
Life isn't all about love.
Being single is not that exactly a bad thing.

Please read :
I am not under pressure to be taken.
I am just emoing, let me be.
Don't judge me >,<
Yes I will be fine soon.


P/s Going to watch the last song today(:

Being Emo

Its been a while, I know (:
Sorry but I have been busy slacking and procrastinating.

Oh I went fishing yesterday night.
It was fun and very cold.

A good get away from the city from all the hectic workload that is pilling up.
Yet I haven't even touched any yet.
Help me make it all disappear.

Need to make this heart beat again.
Cause currently it has stopped beating literally.

It feels as if I no longer am me anymore.
Oh yes it's that time where I feel a bit under the weather.

Lost for words.
Means it's time to go off.
Night. xx

Hello moodyness.

Time goes by,

As if it flies,

But somehow today,
You are stuck on my mind.

You msned me the other day,
I wonder why,
Whatever the reason is,
I said my goodbye.

I feel like crap,
I wanted to cry,
But God is always on standby,

And He never fails to get me by.

Am I allowed to stop my heart,
From all the pain and the hurts,
From all the things said out loud,
From all the happenings in my world.

Don't you realise,
I can only tolerate this much,
Stop going overboard,
For I am about to burst.

It is too depressing to stay awake any longer.
So goodnight the lonely world.