Frustration.

I find it rather funny how someone can live on with life even after they have destroyed another person's life. It's funny how someone can actually claim that they love someone and break up with them the next day. It's funny how people can promise to love that person forever and ends up hating them. Honestly things are so funny that I can't even laugh about it. I am confused about how I feel. I moved on with my life but yet I still dwell in the past. My past is still haunting me everyday and I can't help but compare the guy that I use to like and the guy that I like now. Something is stopping me from trusting my instinct and judgment about him a.k.a the new guy that I like. Another friend of mine likes him and I am worried that I will get hurt again. That is why I keep looking for his flaws to make sure that I don't fall for him deeply. Once upon a time, I opened my heart and trusted with all my heart but I ended up hurt. How can I be sure that this time, it will be different? Someone else already likes him and I am not sure whether I want to get involve in this. I can't hear myself speak anymore. My heart races every time he comes near and I can't control it. Stupid feelings why can't they just fade away? He is so annoying! Every time I get a picture of a beautiful moment, he destroys it by doing something really stupid. Fine I am gonna admit that I get Jealous every time he calls her and ask about her. I can't stop this crazy mind of mine from wondering about the possibilities that he likes her. I get jealous when he rubs another girls back. I get jealous coz I am an unreasonable girl! Right Nantanaa? Anyways I am glad you got started with your blog :) Gotta go talk to that bitch of mine. Tata.

Hello you :)

Tommorrow I will be getting my Spm results! Don't know what I am going to get but it's a little too late to regret ain't it? College is getting better everyday especially with my new bunch of friends who keeps me entertained throughout the day.Everything is moving at a faster pace already and I am at the point of the year where I can safely say I am enjoying most of the things I am doing. Oh ya..I found someone new :) Believe me he is nice, cute and fun to be around with. Blur at times but yet charming. Lawl. Not gonna mention his name, just incase anybody happens to google his name or mine and find this page like the last time. I am playing it safe and hopefully something turns out this time. I think it's kinda a one way and one way only kind of thing coz I think he likes a friend of mine. Doomed. Why is it that everytime I fall for someone, he will be taken away? Grr...don't know and don't care already. Whatever it is, just go with the flow. Lawl. I am going to be dead tommorrow so I shall enjoy the rest of my night. Tata.