Update!

Here I am to update this blog of mine. I am having a hard time deciding and right now I don't want to think about the lovey dovey stuff just yet. I am already a very confused person and thinking about all this, just makes things worse. There are so many things going on simultaneously, sometimes it makes it difficult for me to breath. Tonight, I just feel like having the longest bath and just relax. Sometimes, life gets too busy and we just forget to breath at times. Never felt so lost in my own world before. Lets dump those things aside and talk about something else. Here is something that I learned in my life that I would like to share with everyone which is the art of apologizing. I realized that this is actually very important. Sometimes we find it hard to apologize because most of the time we let our pride get in the way. From time to time, we all make mistakes and most of the time we will be busy pointing fingers at other people but ourselves. I can't deny that I find it hard to say sorry to someone. But I am learning now, I am saying sorry when I make a mistake and I am admitting my mistakes . Well to me that is a big step I took but I am glad I did it. Alrighto enough for the night. TATA (=

Frustrated.

I went for Lee hom's concert today although most of the time I don't know what is he singing but it was awesomeee~! That was the fun part of the week. Now back to the frustrating part of the week. He is so insensitive, blur and definitely do not pass as a gentlemen. I hate him a lot. My feelings are so erratic. Oh my goodness, I am currently in between of guys and none of them can be taken seriously. When I decide to stick to one, he goes into a relationship and I am back to square one. Every time I move one step forward, I will take ten steps backward. Cat is so dumb and slow in picking up things. Honestly, I feel neglected by him. Every time he entertains my other friends more than me. Stupid idiot with a brain slower than a pig. He clearly cares for other people more than me and this is clearly a sign that I should stay away from him. Oh I am too tired and can't be bother about him anymore. I am outta here. Tata (=

The crap.

Since I have no where else to complain about this or rather don't want to cause anymore havoc anywhere else anymore. Here it is. You know what, I like a guy who thinks I like another guy. Sigh...what shall I do about that? But yet sometimes I find it easier to like that guy that everybody thinks "I like." People who knows who I like ain't helping much by rubbing it in more in my face by doing somethings which totally send the wrong message to the guy I don't really like. Confusing huh? I know. It's frustrating how sometimes when you tell someone something and they get too involve in it can cause a lot of havoc! I was happy just now and now my mood is just ruined. I hate this. I really do. One problem after another. This is really getting out of hand. I am speechless at this moment. No idea how to solve this problems I am facing. I shall end this post with a famous saying "Whatever and anything. "

Frustration.

I find it rather funny how someone can live on with life even after they have destroyed another person's life. It's funny how someone can actually claim that they love someone and break up with them the next day. It's funny how people can promise to love that person forever and ends up hating them. Honestly things are so funny that I can't even laugh about it. I am confused about how I feel. I moved on with my life but yet I still dwell in the past. My past is still haunting me everyday and I can't help but compare the guy that I use to like and the guy that I like now. Something is stopping me from trusting my instinct and judgment about him a.k.a the new guy that I like. Another friend of mine likes him and I am worried that I will get hurt again. That is why I keep looking for his flaws to make sure that I don't fall for him deeply. Once upon a time, I opened my heart and trusted with all my heart but I ended up hurt. How can I be sure that this time, it will be different? Someone else already likes him and I am not sure whether I want to get involve in this. I can't hear myself speak anymore. My heart races every time he comes near and I can't control it. Stupid feelings why can't they just fade away? He is so annoying! Every time I get a picture of a beautiful moment, he destroys it by doing something really stupid. Fine I am gonna admit that I get Jealous every time he calls her and ask about her. I can't stop this crazy mind of mine from wondering about the possibilities that he likes her. I get jealous when he rubs another girls back. I get jealous coz I am an unreasonable girl! Right Nantanaa? Anyways I am glad you got started with your blog :) Gotta go talk to that bitch of mine. Tata.

Hello you :)

Tommorrow I will be getting my Spm results! Don't know what I am going to get but it's a little too late to regret ain't it? College is getting better everyday especially with my new bunch of friends who keeps me entertained throughout the day.Everything is moving at a faster pace already and I am at the point of the year where I can safely say I am enjoying most of the things I am doing. Oh ya..I found someone new :) Believe me he is nice, cute and fun to be around with. Blur at times but yet charming. Lawl. Not gonna mention his name, just incase anybody happens to google his name or mine and find this page like the last time. I am playing it safe and hopefully something turns out this time. I think it's kinda a one way and one way only kind of thing coz I think he likes a friend of mine. Doomed. Why is it that everytime I fall for someone, he will be taken away? Grr...don't know and don't care already. Whatever it is, just go with the flow. Lawl. I am going to be dead tommorrow so I shall enjoy the rest of my night. Tata.