IMH

We are so busy with our assignments and exams until we have reached a point where we haven't chatted in a very long time. It seems like you have forgotten about me.

I heard so many things about you and all the rumours about you being attached but you told me the you are not. And somehow I trust you.

So,

How are you?
How's uni?
How's everything?

I hope you are doing great and I hope that uni ain't killing you. I haven't been laughing as much as I did in March cause you ain't there to make silly jokes.

Make sure you take care of yourself so that you won't fall sick and don't forget to eat! It's not good for your health to study and starve yourself. I wish I was close to you then I have the excuse to care for you.

I just miss chatting with him and laughing at all his lame jokes. Haven't seen him in about a week already.

This is just a feeling that I can't stop feeling inside me. I thought I felt nothing but everytime your name comes up, my heart can't help but twitch a little.

Good night you (:

Another you.

You said goodbye,
With a smile on your face,

And because of that,
I feel like I am floating.


P/s : I heart your dimples (:

Yellow (:

Dunno what to update my blog about. Somehow nothing is going through my brain that I am interested in typing about but I will say this.

You just don't matter anymore.
And I am proud to say it out loud and clear.
Boy, you can rot wherever you are coz I won't give a damn anymore (:
Have a nice life.

p/s : Sorry for taking so long girls, to finally realise that I have been a fool all this while for ever giving my heart to someone who crushes it over and over again. But I am done this time, I promise (:

Loving someone.

This is one thing I don't understand. People nowadays are allowed to marry whoever they want or rather love. At least most of us has that freedom. We get to choose who we want to marry but yet more and more people are getting divorce. Why is this happening? Isn't it a bit ironic to hear how much someone say they love their husband or wife but ends up getting divorce. Promise to love them forever and say other things like they will never leave each others side until the day that they die. But when something bad happens, all they do is point fingers at each other. Somehow anger steps in and overcomes the feeling of love. Then fighting occurs and they end up fighting so much that there comes a point where neither of them gives a damn anymore. But I often wonder what happened to the love they had for each other? Does love disappear that easily? What happened to forever?Well some of our family friends are going through some marital problems and they seem like they are together just for the sake of their kids. Honestly I feel like screaming at them and maybe that will wake them up. Firstly, they weren't forced to marry each other. They chose their life partner themselves. They fell in love but somehow after getting married they end up hating each other. Worse still, they don't even care about each other anymore. People often don't realise what they actually have until the day they loose it. Very often people say, I should have done this, I should have done that , I should have say said this, I should have said that but sadly these thoughts often comes after that person is no longer on this earth. Isn't it a little too late to regret or to express such thoughts. Does it really take death to make someone realise about how they feel? Is that the only time people find it suitable to forgive a person after they have left the earth? I don't understand. They are blessed enough to be able to marry someone they love. Some people aren't that blessed to have someone they love and some people loose their love ones to death. Why can't they see that they should appreciate every minute they have together. Instead of wasting it on fighting and hurting each other. Life is short and it is too short to waste it on those arguments. Love with all your heart and live life as if there is no tomorrow. This is a reminder to us that we should marry the one that we truly love and learn how to tolerate each others differences. And most of all make sure we never stop communicating with each other cause if communication stops, it means no turning back. Don't end up regretting at the end because it will be too late. That is all I have got to say so goodnight everbody.

The past.

One guy that I use to have a huge crush on, came to church today after disappearing for a very long time. I started liking him when I was 11 and it lasted for 3 years. Ahahah. Can't believe I was that loyal back then. Anyways when I saw him stepping into church today, I couldn't breathe and I started panicking. Somehow I felt the need to impress him and to show him that I am all grown up now. After 5 years, my heart still races whenever he comes near me and I start to fumble. Don't get me wrong. I don't like him the way I use to but somehow I want to prove a point to him and myself that I grew up and moved on with my life even without him being apart of it. My life turned out great and I was desperate back then but now I am standing on my own two feet without him. But I can't deny that I loved him and I can't deny that he is a wonderful guy. I can't deny that he made me happy and guided me back to the right path. Those memories I shared with him will always remain deep down in my heart. And I can honestly say despite all the tears I shed, I never regretted a single day spend with him. He cared. He truly cared. I miss those times we use to talk and laugh. I miss everything we had. I miss him. And most of all I miss our friendship. Something we didn't maintain because he found someone else and I found someone else. We got too caught up with our own love lives that we forgot each other. I guess life is like that. Somehow we always look back and ask "What if?" But life is too short to end up regretting about the choices and risk you didn't take. So I took my risk, got my heart broken but that made me a stronger person inside. All these experiences made me who I am today. And I thank God because He constantly gave me strength. That's all for now. WTYL (:

Hello you :)

Tommorrow I will be getting my Spm results! Don't know what I am going to get but it's a little too late to regret ain't it? College is getting better everyday especially with my new bunch of friends who keeps me entertained throughout the day.Everything is moving at a faster pace already and I am at the point of the year where I can safely say I am enjoying most of the things I am doing. Oh ya..I found someone new :) Believe me he is nice, cute and fun to be around with. Blur at times but yet charming. Lawl. Not gonna mention his name, just incase anybody happens to google his name or mine and find this page like the last time. I am playing it safe and hopefully something turns out this time. I think it's kinda a one way and one way only kind of thing coz I think he likes a friend of mine. Doomed. Why is it that everytime I fall for someone, he will be taken away? Grr...don't know and don't care already. Whatever it is, just go with the flow. Lawl. I am going to be dead tommorrow so I shall enjoy the rest of my night. Tata.