CNY eve

It's time to update the way I should be updating. Have been updating without going through what I typed and always doing it while I am half asleep. Too impulsive at times and once again, it's time to change.

Attended a reunion dinner tonight. Actually crashed another family's reunion dinner.

Now I really appreciate reunion dinners with the family even more. It is not about the food or anything else. It's about spending time with your family without feeling restricted or even shy.

Everybody was so comfortable with each other except for me and my brother. I stucked to him the whole night cause he was the only one I could actually be myself with.

The whole night can be described in one word, AWKWARDDDD!

This is the first "reunion" dinner away from home and it is by far the worse reunion dinner ever.

Appreciate the effort made to make us feel like we belong there.
But the fact is we don't.

It's true what they say, a host has to have the grace to host other people. I see it now that I have experienced the ever so cold shoulder welcome.

Ironic how you can feel grateful and ungrateful at the same time.
Now I realise how much I miss my chaotic and ever so imperfect family which is pretty much perfect actually.

There you have it, my first CNY eve away from home.