CNY eve

It's time to update the way I should be updating. Have been updating without going through what I typed and always doing it while I am half asleep. Too impulsive at times and once again, it's time to change.

Attended a reunion dinner tonight. Actually crashed another family's reunion dinner.

Now I really appreciate reunion dinners with the family even more. It is not about the food or anything else. It's about spending time with your family without feeling restricted or even shy.

Everybody was so comfortable with each other except for me and my brother. I stucked to him the whole night cause he was the only one I could actually be myself with.

The whole night can be described in one word, AWKWARDDDD!

This is the first "reunion" dinner away from home and it is by far the worse reunion dinner ever.

Appreciate the effort made to make us feel like we belong there.
But the fact is we don't.

It's true what they say, a host has to have the grace to host other people. I see it now that I have experienced the ever so cold shoulder welcome.

Ironic how you can feel grateful and ungrateful at the same time.
Now I realise how much I miss my chaotic and ever so imperfect family which is pretty much perfect actually.

There you have it, my first CNY eve away from home.

Move on.

She's right. For she has said it's time to move on with my life and go ahead without looking backwards anymore. Slowly and gradually forget it. Whatever happened in the past, doesn't matter anymore for I am here and not there. I only care about what happens to my family and friends. The rest is none of my concern.

My heart shall only care for the ones I love,
The rest of the world can just dissappear.
For protecting them is my full time job,
For whatever it costs.

Oh I found finally got my house today.
Thank God and thank you for all your prayers (:
Will update pictures of the house soon.
Until the next post,
Take care and God bless.

You. Yes you.

Hey you.
Don't judge her for you don't know her.
Don't call her a friend if you think that way.

Since you have already found happiness.
You no longer feel the loneliness.

Don't you hurt her.
For I will be here.

Don't awake the inner monster.
For I will make you regret.
A definite promise.
To give you the "best" time of your lives.

Church.

Since it's Sunday today, I shall blog about churches.

I DIDN'T GO TO CHURCH TODAY (:
that is because I went yesterday! Ahaha. Got you!


I am currently attending Bridge church (:
And it's different in a good way.

Everybody comes for one purpose only, that is to WORSHIP.
I miss serving in church and I was thinking about serving in Bridge.

Anyway, there are people who go to church forgetting the reason why they are in church in the first place. Like for example, couples in churches. It is very cute to see the leaders who are couples. That is because they are madly in love with each other but they always manage to keep it to themselves and not show it to the others. They know how to act infront of others and show a good example. Ahaha. It's so sweet. And there are the less wise couples where they don't know the appropriate timing or place to show their affection for each other. Stick to each other like they are afraid one of them would fly away or end up dead. All they do in church is flirt with one another. It's sad to see that they have forgotten the purpose of being in church. What's the use of attending church then? Ahah. Well been here for a week now, heard and seen enough (: Enough said.


P/s My blog, my space. If you don't like what you are reading, GET LOST :)

Meaniee (:

Have been walking the streets of Melbourne these past few days. Never thought I would dream of ever saying this but there are so many and I mean too many good looking guys in this city. Lawl.


My brother told me that my taste in guys deteriorates as the years go by. I would love to argue that it's not true but looking at my past, I have to agree with him. Haha.


I guess I have always looked at the inner beauty and the outer beauty doesn't really matter. Beauty on the inside is far greater than the beauty on the outside.

But then again, I must say that looks does matter to a certain extent. It's better to go for someone whom you are proud to be seen with him or her. And not wanting to hide your partner each time you see a friend.

Looking back, I remember that I wanted to hide a certain individual, although I claimed I was falling head over heels for him. Ahaha. Old times. Funny how fast time flies.

P/s I thought what I saw was right but I was so so wrong. The thoughts of it, is already mortifying.